Showing posts with label A Fraction of the Whole.. Show all posts
Showing posts with label A Fraction of the Whole.. Show all posts

Monday, June 27, 2011

13 hours

So...it was boyfriend's birthday last week, and the best of plans went horrifically awry when the bloody ash cloud from Chile got in everyone's grill and flights to Sydney were grounded indefinitely. After many emotionally charged texts/phone calls, it was decided that one Doll would 'take one for the team' and catch the train from Brisbane to Sydney; as opposed to possibly not getting out on a flight as planned.
13 hours.
Departed at 7.30am. As follows:

7.30am: I can totally do this - its easy; just get on the train and busy self with daydreams/business plans/drawing/writing/reading/anything to take mind off the time.

7.35am: Have garnered significant attention from the two little girls sitting opposite me.

8.00am: Everyone is sharing their woes at not being able to catch their flights and the subsequent dilemas about being on a train for 13 hours instead.

9.00am: One only gets reception for one's phone when the train stops at stations...in the middle of bushranger country...for about 1 minute...so one must respond to texts which flood in as fast as one's fingers can move.

11.00am: Totally doing manicures!! The two little girls, their Mum, and the old lady behind me; everyone is wearing one of my favourite polishes (and the only one I carry on my person)
LA Moss by Butter. Buy it. It's hell sexy.

12.00pm: 9 hours to go. The flood of texts from boyfriend and best mates helps...but sitting is lame so I'm wandering around chatting with peeps and drinking tea.

1.00pm: For serious. The landscape is beautiful, but saints preserve us...this is the looooong way to do something, for sure. More writing/reading/chatting with the folks.We've made an informal cheer party for eachother...people are losing their minds at an alarming rate so we are all attempting to keep morale high (and taking it in turns to have a brain snap at the ludicrous pace of this bloody train from hell).

3.00pm: 6 hours to go. Imma die on this train. This train is actually going nowhere...conspiracies flood my mind and I'm looking for the hidden cameras...it's surely a scientific/sociological experiment into 'what happens when people have no choice but to submit to the limitations of time'.

4.00pm: The little girls (who have been spending a lot of time with me for 'touch-ups' to their nails) have completely lost their minds over our cruel and unusual incarceration and are biting eachother and their Mum. Everyone's in tears.

5.00pm: Darling has been texting like a madman...4 hours to go. I'm losing the plot.

6.00pm: Start feeling nauseous. A lot.

7.00pm: What kind of bloody train does not have lemonade for stomach-churned passengers!!??

8.00pm: May as well be 500 hours to go...I fantasise about just getting off.

9.00pm: Carnage. Stumble off train, into the arms of a cold Sydney night, gasping for fresh air and swearing to never, ever do this again.

But then, there was this:


Happy Birthday darling one.



Monday, April 11, 2011

Free Ai Weiwei

The wonderful Chinese artist and activist, Ai Weiwei, has been detained (has 'disappeared'), following his recent work; a piece that may or may not condemn the state of civil and artistic repression in China.
I'm sure his safety will be uppermost in the prayers of the art world until his release. I very much hope so, anyway.

Monday, April 4, 2011

365 Grateful

I found myself in a rotten mood last Saturday. To be fair, I was very over-tired and struggling with a bout of the flu, but I was a little over-come with the urge to stomp my feet and throw things. New nail polish and a lovely dress plus a time-out at my fave watering hole (where I moodily sipped lemonade), did nothing to alter it. Then I took it out on someone else. Someone I care about, who didn't deserve to be blasted because I was being emotionally retarded.
Next day my sis arrived home with the QWeekend which Mum had told her to give me. I was on the phone at the time, and looked at the woman on the cover, wondering how/where I knew her. Then I realised it was Hailey, the talented daughter of my old friend Toni; the woman who originally piqued my interest in film-making.
Hailey started 365 Grateful in an attempt to re-engage with her life and beat a bout of depression, by finding something (one thing), for which to be grateful, on a daily basis. Together with Toni, she is now making a documentary about it, and the whole project has received a beautiful response from people... a huge array of whom are doing their own 365 Grateful projects.
Naturally I wanted to be a part of it too... mine is multi-media and I'm going to find some lovely, big books in which to chart my gratefulness. Starting with being grateful for receiving the reality-check on the weekend :)

Monday, December 13, 2010

Bacolod; Philippines, 2010.

It's been a culture shock and a difficult few weeks of adjustment since returning from our mission to Bacolod in the Philippines. The reality of the profound differences between life here, and life there, have left me seriously heartsore. I never expected to feel so much. I never expected to love so much, and to have that love reciporocated tenfold back at me by little children, their parents and families. The sorrow at having to leave them when there is so much to be done, and return here to my life of privilege, has only been abated by the speed at which our plans for extentions to the Kinder school, and increased commitment to establishing the 'Livelihood' projects have been approved and responded to by the powers that be. Here are some photos and some account of my adopted home, and my new, cherished, extended family. I share, not with the intention of preaching, but of informing... it takes such a small amount to change people's lives in the third world.



Cloud cities whilst flying into Bacolod.




Some of the 122 students, all aged 4-6, at the Kinder school where our feeding and livelihood programs are based.



Lunch time.



Teeth brushing. Critical to try and save as many little teeth as possible to preserve overall health.


The slums. What they do have is immaculately kept. Mothers were running around trying to brush hair and neaten little bodies upon our arrival, and the prized rotating fan was summoned and unpacked from its plastic to provide as much hospitality as possible. The little ones just wanted to be cuddled and their voices saying 'Thankyou for feeding us' caused explosive tears. We had to try very hard to keep it together - it's indulgent to cry at the reality of their poverty when they have to get on with it, in the most impossible of circumstances.


There was a mother sitting beside me, nursing a child who looked to be about 2 years old. She explained that she was very worried that the child was not recovering from a bout of fever, despite her best efforts. Her baby was dripping sweat and could hardly keep his little eyes open; labouring under shallow breaths, the tiny chest was just covered by the skin stretched over the sharp relief of bones. Death moves quickly here. The people are hesitant to take children to hospital due to the extreme situation there (overcrowding) and the inability to afford any medication. The result is a high fatality rate; increased profoundly by the horrors of prolonged malnutrition.




They are the most wonderful people I've ever met.







Organising the purchase of another fridge for the feeding at the school. Their original one was needed for medicines, and we can do more food preparation this way - but not too much more as the frequent blackouts would mean wastage of precious resources.


The school grounds.


The little sick bay.


The library.



Last to be collected that day.


Our lost ones.
These little brothers were students at the Kinder school when they both passed away 12 months ago.
The first brother became incredibly ill, possibly with Dengue fever (an all-too common killer in Bacolod), and his mother took him to hospital where she was warned that his condition was precarious. She called the school and begged for urgent prayers, and then dashed home to prepare the other children and bring them to the hospital to say goodbye. Upon her return to the family home in the slums, she found the second little boy gravely ill with the same symptoms. Out of her mind with panic she fled to the hospital with him in her arms, where he died a very short while after being admitted. In the depths of despair she then took up a bedside vigil with the first son... not long afterward he awoke, bid her farwell and told her he was going now, to be with his brother.
The funerals were held together during one of the worst typhoons in recent memory. The Kinder children waited at the gates of the old cemetary, being comforted by teachers and parents, as the nuns waded through the deluge trying to hold-up the poor mother and get her to were the little plots were waiting. The only thing is, that all the water soaks the earth to such an extent that the bodies of the other deceased buried there have been known to rise to the surface. Burying her two sons, in torrential rain, whilst everyone was being very wary of what they may have been stepping on. It's true that at times there seems to be no end to their misery. Just more misery, and more death, and more starvation.
But they keep praying, and they keep battling.
The boys' photos will soon be joined by a picture of one of the nuns who also recently passed away. Their memories are kept alive and the school community continues to support their mother and the siblings left behind.




Ice cream on our last day.






Marielle is 6 years old, the eldest child of four, and she taught herself to read using bits of newspaper she found in the slums.



Saying goodbye was traumatic for everyone, especially this little baby.


I cant explain the bonds that were forged during our time there, nor the level of hope and commitment shared between us. My greatest wish is to get back there as soon as possible; not at all an option at the moment, but regular trips may become a reality when building commences.
As it is, my heart flies back there whenever I close my eyes.



Thursday, November 11, 2010

Hello from the Third World.

Hi everyone!
I've got about 2 seconds online before I have to jump on a tricycad (a tiny motorbike with a bit of a seat attatched to it) to tear off up to the little school with ice cream for the children.
This adventure has changed my life. I'm going to have to think pretty hard about how best to share it with you when I return to Australia. It's indescribable to feed people who are starving. To actually do something for them that has an immediate and resounding effect on their lives. The little children have stolen my heart, and I'm dreading saying goodbye to them. The reality is that some of them will not survive to adulthood, but the sisters have been magnificent in encouraging me to establish bonds with them, and to help us stay in close contact with them - probably a bit like sponsor children, but more like extended family... and I've been lucky enough to spend a significant amount of time meeting their familes and becoming very familiar with the huge difficulties of their day to day survival, and we have become extremely close. I've learnt that language is no barrier to the giving and receiving of love.
Best wishes to you all - we have the precious fridge we have bought arriving this afternoon... the salesman, Victor, has proposed marriage and I'm seriously considering accepting him in exchange for more whitegoods for the school.
Mabuhay (cheers)!! xo

Saturday, July 31, 2010

An unfortunate post.

I recently posted about how I was greatly inspired by an episode of Oprah featuring Mike Tyson and Evander Holyfield. Prior to reading the comment from one reader, I was unaware Mike Tyson was a convicted rapist. I immediately google searched and was horrified to find she was correct. And to answer her comment here - No, Oprah made no mention that Tyson was a convicted rapist. Had there been one, I would never have watched the episode. I apologise for any upset the original post caused my readers; it has been removed.  You will have to believe me when I say that finding out I have unknowingly praised a convicted rapist on this blog is a blow straight through my heart. In light of the matter, I've decided to take an indefinite break from blogging.
 
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